Well, I Made It!

The gallbladder is officially removed as of 8:30am today, and I did indeed wake-up from the anesthesia…praise God!      The hubby was a real trooper too, he probably drove about 150 miles today between shuttling me to the hospital, the toddler to daycare, grandma back to her place, then back to the hospital to be there for me when I woke up, then back home, back to get the toddler from daycare, back to get grandma again, back to our house and then back to the hospital to retreive me.  May I never take this man for granted.   Nor may I ever take any of the many wonderful people for granted who kept me in their thoughts and prayers today.

Off to bed.

Until next time,

Lorelei

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Notes to My Pastor Follow-Up

On Thursday night I changed my mind and decided I wanted to share a testimony at church on Sunday.   I emailed my pastor as a follow-up to the email where I said I didn’t want to share a testimony because I didn’t think I could make it through.

Here’s what I shared this morning:

 In John 12:23-28 Jesus says:

“The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. I tell you the truth, unless a kernel of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life. Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.

“Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!”

My heart has been troubled these past couple of weeks. I’ll be having surgery on Thursday to have my gallbladder removed. I’m probably less concerned at this point that something will go wrong with the surgery and more afraid of being put under. I had no fear at all when it came to giving birth and I’m not really afraid of being in pain. But, I really don’t like the idea of being knocked out so that someone else is completely in control. Which of course lead me to acknowledge that God is in control, so what do I have to fear? Except, I don’t know what God’s will is. What if God’s will isn’t the same as what I want, to get through the surgery and everything go perfectly as planned. And if, something were to happen, am I ok with that? Is it well with my soul? Do I trust God to watch over those I love, that Father really does know what’s best? In the past couple of days I’ve found comfort and encouragement in this, even Jesus was troubled with the prospect of what was laid before him, he was troubled by what God’s will was for him, but acknowledged that this was God’s purpose for him. The fact that Jesus was troubled comforts me, because sometimes the greatest encouragement is to know that we’re not alone.

I have to remind myself what Jesus said: “Now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save me from this hour’? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify your name!”

While I certainly hope that it’s God’s will for me that all goes well with my surgery, and by the world’s estimation it should because it’s a pretty standard surgery, I found myself not sure what to pray. Obviously, everyone’s first reaction when you ask them to pray for you is to pray for what we deem to be the best possible outcome. The surgery goes well and as according to planned, you heal quickly, you wake up from the anesthesia. But in the grand scheme of things, I’m not sure we always know what the best possible outcome, in God’s eyes, really is. I found myself struggling to pray for peace and acceptance in whatever God’s will is in my life, though I still maintain the hope and desire that all goes well, as I think we all do. But we also know that there is suffering in this life, and that even these things God uses ultimately for His good and the good of those who love Him.

Romans 8: 26-28 tells us:

In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

I don’t fear death, I look forward to seeing my God, someday, and have confidence and joy that I know where I’m going. But I fear what I would leave behind. I want my son to always know that he is loved, I want to be there to encourage him and to see him one day accept the salvation offered to him by God. As I was writing this, our son came up to me and asked me to clean the crusties out of his nose…who will get the crusties out of his nose if not his mommy? So, I pray that I get to see these things, and if for some reason not, that God takes care of this for me (though I’m not sure how He’ll get rid of his crusties).

I John 5: 13 tells us:

I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

So I pray that though we never know when it is our time to go, that when it is that it is used as part of God’s plan and will, that we can have confidence that He will care for those we care for now and in the future. And that in the meantime He continues to give us His peace that is beyond our understanding.

To reiterate the verses for today: Philippians 4:4-9

Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

Until next time,

Lorelei

Cleveland Doctor Writes The Working Woman’s Pregnancy Book

Maybe I’ll get this to read next time I end up pregnant!    My OB gave me another book by this doctor, Dr. Spock’s Pregnancy Book and I’ve read much of her pregnancy advice on the Dr. Spock website.

http://blog.cleveland.com/lifestyles/2008/08/dr_marjorie_greenfield_says_ba.html

It’s so nice to live in a city where we have experts in medicine.    I feel so spoiled when I see my OB or take my son to the pediatrician or go to my family doctor or even the dentist.    It makes me upset when friends have poor experiences at other hospitals when I feel that their experience could have been better.   Even in medicine, often attention to detail and bedside manner (I call these customer service) can make the biggest difference in our quality of care.   Rather than just being a doctor, Dr. Greenfield takes it a step further and listens to the concerns of working women who are pregnant and then shares this with the world.    Because often the best encouragement is just knowing that we aren’t alone.

Until next time,

Lorelei

More On Losing Weight…AKA: My First Blog Interview

On the Beach

On the Beach

As a result of a recent post, I was interviewed this week for a blog called Balanced Health and Nutrition.    Now, before you laugh, I was interviewed because I am in the process of losing weight. 

The woman who interviewed me, Rebecca, was extremely nice and encouraging, and is apparently a native Ohioan (which may be why she is so nice!).   The questions that she asked, and I answered, are as follows:

  • You dropped two dress sizes in two years. How did you do it?
  • Describe a typical day for you before you lost the weight and then after.
  • What is your strongest motivator?
  • What is your weight management philosophy?
  • If you could give someone thinking of losing weight advice, what would it be?
  • Is there anything else you would like to share?

If you want to read my answers, you’ll have to read the post.

And most unfortunately, this comes on a day that I received a call from my doctor’s office to tell me I have been diagnosed with gall stones and have to make an appointment to meet with a surgeon.  Ugh.   I thought when you lost weight you were supposed to get healthier?  😉

Until next time,

Lorelei
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